silver lining

I will soon be a scholar. as soon as I hand in the letter of acceptance. Wow, can you believe it? me a scholar? I felt a rush just writing my name on that line that says "scholar's name(in block letters)". Everything seems fine again. I am not that much of a loser. I have achieved something. strange how a piece of paper has the power to decide one's mood and emotions. I was in mixed feelings because unfortunately, not the entire class got the scholarship.. on what yardstick did they judge us with? she definitely deserves the scholarship, on merit of her utmost passion for japanese. I was quite pained to see her sobbing in disappointment and did what I could to comfort her. It seems she is experiencing feelings of inferiority and waves of doubt, that just a week ago plagued me. I can fully empathise with what she's feeling and my heart really goes out to her. RJ seriously is a very competitive environment. I hope she gets over it soon. jiayou!

on a lighter note, 14 days and one hour more to JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait! bishounen! bishoujo! I'm coming! I hope government will sponsor airfare this year!!!!!!! haha then I can spend more on souvenirs!!!!!! wahahahahaha......... aiyo why government so kiam one, budget this budget that. japan government last time sponsor everything some more...... I hope SIA suddenly feels like doing cip and then decide to sponsor us RAFFLES CLASS TICKETS. after all, we are from raffles hor? don't sit raffles class sit what? on the wings ar......