studying is my cold turkey

i finished watching jewel...

dear chamgun is now happily married to her palace official, has an 8-year-old daughter and is still happily practising medicine...

me?

i've gone into withdrawal.

when there was jewel,

i got out of bed once i woke up, eager to kick-start the day with a daily dose of jewel. eager to find out how her enemies get their just deserts. keen to know how she gets out of her daily fixes to emerge triumphant over dark conspiracies. now i laze in bed, wondering how to get pass the rest of the day.

you taught me perserverance, tolerance, morality and love.

chamgun... when there was you, i was happy. everyday was lived with meaning. although there was anguish, pain, but there was happiness and joy too. there was purpose.

now. life is a void. i am in limbo. my flat, once warm with anticipation of the next episode of your life is now cold and claustrophobic. my immobility is all the more obvious, and sticks out like a sore thumb. no jewel no life...

i wish u good health forever.


studying is my cold turkey. i must forget you. and i will. but i don't want to...